What Now? Rambling of the mind

Few days ago,

After a long and exciting chat with my friend — may the force be with you, I went to bed, wrapped myself up with a comforter — it is now cold here and I am alone, closed my eyes, (is there anybody sleeping with eyes wide open? ha ha ha), and hoped that I would fall into a blissful sleep.

Hours passed, and still, I was awake.


Thoughts came coming in and inundated my small brain. Some were non-sense, useful, bad and good, and a hodgepodge of bizarre, hazy and dreary thoughts. At the end of it all, one thought, a question, jammed.

WHAT NOW myepinoy?

At that very moment of cold and quiet, it was very obvious that the answer was, I want that sleep now! Without a doubt, at two in the morning, all I needed was a sleep because the day ahead is full. It is called work that sometimes I have mistaken it for as my life.

At some point,

When asked what is the synonym of life, I answered, it is work. Yes, work is life and who could say life is different than work or better than that. In this world that we live in, work occupies most of our waking hours. Unless you are incapable, inutile or bed ridden, the meaning would not change.


I am living my life — I am working. The thing that could humble you down and makes you thankful that you are alive and kicking.

Am I getting older or growing older? What now? It is so sad.

Little things console us because little things afflict us. – Blaise Pascal

Related post: What about ME?

9 Responses to “What Now? Rambling of the mind”

  1. 1 romelettedj December 7, 2007 at 3:32 am

    homesick ? 🙂

  2. 2 myepinoy December 7, 2007 at 1:56 pm


    Ha ha ha. Korek.

  3. 3 bw December 8, 2007 at 3:38 pm

    Very true and how ironic it is that in a given work day, we spend more time in the office than family nowadays ! I think our bodies are conditioned to move and those that retire early often get back to doing something and keeping busy else their bodies weaken 😦

  4. 4 sexy mom December 8, 2007 at 8:52 pm

    hey! it’s not that bad…it’s not sad. because, really, we can change the course of our lives, if we want to. it’s all a matter of courage–to put in order what we feel is best and suitable.

  5. 5 homebodyhubby December 9, 2007 at 10:21 am

    thumbs up ako dun sa 3rd to the last paragraph mo — yung hindi in “boldface”.

    more than 2 years ka na pala sa blogging… kita ko kasi andami mo nang nahuling “spam” (hehe, yun pa ang napansin e)

    salamat sa pagdaan sa ‘lungga’ ko. 🙂

  6. 6 verns December 12, 2007 at 5:35 am

    Sometimes I can’t help but be envious of those people who got jobs that requires them to travel and see different cultures all over the world…you know they’re working at the same time having fun…

  7. 7 anoba December 13, 2007 at 8:54 pm

    Bro, bakasyon lang katapat nyan…. ha ha ha ha

  8. 8 annamanila January 11, 2008 at 1:29 pm

    When you have an esep-esep mind like yours, it sometimes boomerangs on you. It is best to go with the flow … take things as they come … thank you if something apparently positive happens, thank you pa din if it doesnt for somehow there is also a treasure in every thing.

    I am a great one for teaching you this philosophy. I can feel down on the pits too. So you see i know all the theories but sometimes nabobokkya in the practicum. but i guess in my heart of hearts, i know i will be fine. you will too myepinoy.

  9. 9 Jayred January 12, 2008 at 6:22 pm

    Well, most of the time, I’m bedridden in cold Switzerland. But then again, I do a lot of household chores — now, that’s real WORK — as well. LOL

    Rolly, you are always puyat in Saudi ha. 🙂

    HAPPY NEW YEAR! Here’s to a less sleep-deprived year for you! All the best and God bless.

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